continues episod 3 him.who is he then?

How I did it:

Time is the best medicine. I just let time goes by. Of course wasting lot of time thinking and figuring out about our past. What a loser. lol but at least I learn that it is not worth thinking of someone who is not that great. lol

Lessons & tips:

Trust then when you are moving on, thing will get better. Why you have to think about someone that you are not important for. Let it go, get a life and move on.

2 episod

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I had a crush on this guy for over tis years. He’s cute, smart, interesting… except that he wasnt’ into me at all. He would be super-nice to me one day, and then ignore me for 2 weeks. It was painful. How did I stop thinking about him?Well, many of you are on the right track! The trick seems to be not to contact that person, and to keep yourself busy with other things… eventually you’ll be thinking about your work/studies, your hobbies, that movie you just saw, your friends, etc. Preferably stay away from places where you might run into him, and talk to lots of other people! Also – have patience; it will likely take a few weeks, but you’ll be happy in the end :)

issue around t world,not me only

the last guy i dated was my best friend. thats what relationships are suppost to be, they are your best friend. AND thats cool but when that relationship ends, you cant forget you do loose your best friend and thats something you dont get over in a couple days. so our breakup was probably one of the most confusing that even i can barely explain. we just slowly started fading after a silly fight after i wouldnt go to a razorback game with him because we had been arguing lately and i just thought we needed some time. from then on we started talking more on the phone then actually being around each other. the feeling was still there and we didnt talk differently too each other. we were talking one night and it was just a mutual breakup really over nothing where im sure neither one of us thought it would actually be OVER but it was and it only got worse and harder to deal with because it was just unexpected and it was one of those you dont realize what you have till you loose it. . i would always invite him and beg him to go with me but he would just stay at home while i would go to parties. now i look back and know i should have thought more about his feelings but at the same time he had gotten to do all that ..we were the same age..but he just expericed it all before me. so after our wierd breakup that neither one of us really got. i still took it as a no big deal thing and would try talking to him and his friends at this point wanted him single so they could be boys i guess. and this is when he started changing. we talked about once a month from then on randomly just wondering about each other i guess and this is really the first time i let myself be sad over a boy and it KILLED ME!! . at the beginning of my senior year we decided to try again but he had changed so much as in doing things he use too be too good to do and more. so i felt like the trust wasnt there anymore. he said that we had both matured so it would work. but in reality i think i had gotten out of the party stage when he had just got back in it. after all those times of missing him and thinking about him EVERYSINGLE DAY like i still do know [that i hate] i told him we probably shouldnt only because when we did try again i expected a cute date or where we like started over something i dont know..i mean it had been a whileeee and we had a lot of catching up too do…the same feeling was there and we were back to best friends again but i was confused..i guess i expected him to chase me after saying that..but he still texted me everyday and we did that for a long time but i eventually told him we couldnt do that if we wanted to mvoce on..i told him he should get a girlfriend bc deep down i knew if he had a girlfriend i would be less likelky too ever want him again,, wierd i know but thats how i felt….and so he took that as me saying he was such a bad guy for the things he had been doing then and we stopped talking. i recently had my graduation and looked over in the crowd to my left and we both made eye contact and even tho we ended whatever taht last thing was on good terms i had hard feelings and i dont know if its because i sitll to this day can not stop thinking of him..not in a i miss him like want to be with him way..but in a i miss what we had so much and i cant feel that with anyone else…way you know….i just dont know what i wantttttt uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i just cant wait till the day i find the next boy that stops me from thinking of this guy every single day!!!!

special thanks to U

that's someone i need to thank here.
wit is,u know who u are.
u always understand wut im going thru.
thanks bro.
having u in my life makes me feel than im still get t bless from HIM.
your supporting words,speech,time we spent togather it priceless.
thanks again bro.

to my mum,thanks 4 everything.
from t day i was born,til wut i am now.
adik tau adik bkn anak yg baek..
from wut u expected me to become.
degil.
menjawab.
mcm2la.but,u stil love me,coz u have 2.
coz u my MUM.
thats y.
huhuhuhu

next,im sorry 4 everything i have done to u.
asking u to do all things that i love
n ignore wut things that u love to do.
i should be more understanding.
life kinda bored witout u text
n arguing wit u is the most i miss.

CROCS 4 sale

Prepair Flip

rio

hanalei


baya
off road
grass root
makino
captiva
wake
crema

smaunye cantek..rambang mate ako tgk ek
my choice are
BAYA
HANALEI
CREMA

Chocolate Moist Cake

TODAY july 28th 2009

tada angin tada ribut,den uat cake.hwahwahwa.
ingatkan susah rupenye senang je.
mula2,amik butter.
than campur ngn sugar.
da campur,use a mixture kacau kacau kacau sampai sebati.
than masokkan 4 eggs satu per satu
..nice....than da mix dgn sebati,masokkan coco powder.
afta that coco powder,mix sapai sebati gak..
lepak jap.
afte that masokkan skit choco bar skit(tatau name tul die ape)
than,mix all up again.
that all
then,kukus je lor
the result is marvellous!!

tis is wut i felt bout u

Ten2Five – I Will Fly

You know all the things I’ve said
You know all the things that we have done
And things I gave to you
there’s no chance for me to say
How precious you are in my life
And you know that is true

To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
and these are all the things I wanna say, hey

I will fly into your arms
And be with you to the end of time
Why are you so far away
You know it’s very hard for me to get my self close to you

You’re the reason why I stay
You’re the one who can not believe
Our love will never end
Is it only in my dream ?
You’re the one who can not see this
How could you be so blind

To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
And these are all the things I wanna say, hey

thanks but i know u mean nothing

You tucked me in

Turned out the light

Kept me safe and sound at night

Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair

Had to drive me every where

You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone

Make a living, make a home

Must have bin as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night

Scared things wouldn't turn out right

You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree

How you wonder who you'll be

Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might

Don't you worry, hold on tight

I promise you there will come a day

Butterfly fly away

(Hold)

Butterfly fly away(butterfly fly away)

Got your wings now you can't stay

Take those dreams and make them all come true

(Hold)

Butterfly fly away(butterfly fly away)

You've bin waiting for this day

All along and known just what to do

(Hold)

Butterfly x3

Butterfly fly away

(Hold)

Butterfly fly away

(Hold)

Butterfly fly away

by miley cyrus

tremendously down n buzy wit meeting

last week is the most buzziest week in my life

sunday
eyam n atok dtg.
wiwid balik.ako g lcct anta.plan ako yg anta,tp ada changes yg ta dpt dielakkan.time flight salah tgk.ako pun lmbt tau,n lmbt la grak.hahahaha.jumpe je la kat lcct.afta anta wiwid,ingatkan na lpka.tp,da lewat.n mama ingat ako blk sa.huhuhuhu.ta jd lepak.balik ikut haluan memasing
hujan lebat gile,takot ako dibuatnye.lpak ngn airis,ngn eyam n atok.

monday
early morning,kna submit assigment.bgn la pepagi.huhu.siap assigment,ibu n atok n eyam kuar g lunch. ako ta ikot.puasa.lapk kat umah.airis tada.balik kmog ngn parents die.cuti kat sini.ako balik afta berbuka.banyak tul barang bwk balik.mcm pindah lame je.,hahahaha,.sampai sa,minta ka b tlg angkat.da la park jauh,segan ka b ako uat.sorry ka b.lpak umah.mlm 2 kuar ngn adeq,g lpak mkn satay.tada kije kan.plan na karaoke.tp,ta jd.fullybook.balik,kemas2 skit.than tdo

tuesday
pepagi bangun,class n g jmpe KP na settlekan everything.wit ka b.ramai tul new student.if tgk,nampak cam kiteorg yg junior.hihihi,blur je fascial expression ako.hahahaha.afta jumpe KP,settle everything,g lunch at mcD.lpak2 sambil on9,afta taht ujan lebat plak.pagi td da lebat da ujan.ni ujan balik.rahmat dr tuhan.afta that, puchong.titin minta tlg angkat barang kat ttdi.n g sooka plak..ngn ka b skali.lapk kat sooka,lama gak la.on9 skali.titin g tgk spa.on t way balik,na d jadikan cerita.tayar kna paku.peh!terkejt ako dibuatnye.ingatkantayar depan yg prob.upenye tayar belakang.,flat abis.benti kat shell.ingatkan na 2kar sendiri.peh,sgt ta mampu.sib abik ade kedai tayar dkt2 shell 2.den pun jalan la g sane ngn ka b n titin.afta that,dpt tau mlm ada meeting plak.mmg penat.balik dlm kul dkr kul 12.

wenesday
ta ingat sgt ape jd ari2,yg tau mlm 2 kiteorg ade meeting n movie.hahahahaha.balik kul 3am.
class dr 830 till 9pm.mlm 2 gak jumpe ami.amik buku sem5.thanks bro.pnat ek.tdo ntah ke mane.n lunch kat jj

thursday
class 1030 till 6.dlm class issue ako nyaris2 mau ngamuk.lect 2 leh mara2 ari.apa kes??sib baek class ecomm ako ske.hahahaha.afte class,chaoi ajak lepak.mmg ta dpt.,pnat.die ajak jog.huhuhuhuhu.balik umah afte dinner kul 8 till 10lebih ako tdo.pnat.akhirnye dpt tdo.YESS!!.hahahaha.mlm 2 plak ada bday party fahan,bf ana.my schmate.thanks 4 inviting me.makes my life smile again afta all happen.lpak2 till 3am kot.sha ada,shee,xyla wit her bf alif.n most of them,is fahan n ana nye friends.

friday
class issue ako ta g.malas.coz dpt merasakan lect 2aka cari pasal dlm class.n tekaan ako benar belake.mmg die ngamuk dlm class.nat pape je,bengang ako dgr.ako bgn kmas2 barang na balik sban.g lunch ngn anis,.ka b,dyna n adeq.kat mcd.dgr kabar,uitm na tutup 1 week.coz HINI.wah.teruja....ptg clas nego CANCEL!bengang ek.da sampai uitm,na park da.tetiba cancel.ape lg cabut balik argh.ptg 2 siggah puchong.ada kenduri mlm 2 kat ampang.siap2 kat puchong.g ngn titin.ajak pjg,tamau.malas.but ako rade he got plan.coz die kuar mlm 2.wit mama,unc n tymopon.but he mis out 1 person.that i saw her car n make me wanna blah on t spot!but,have to wait 4 them to came back.than i chow

adois

wut the F??

hate to be myself.cant u just accept that he will never be yours.
how sincere u love,how devoted u to him not in the earth he will be yours darling..
just DROP IT!when will u sedar yg he don wan u.
uat la pe skali pun,he just will be your best friend.
u should not have any issue with 'me n myheart'.
just stop msging him.cAL him.see him.wut so eva to do wit him.
yg da lepas,just let it go.wut eva u did to him or wit him,let it go.wake up gurl!!
we dont need man to survive.they who need us to breath.
btw,is yr mistake to be close to him.u have the power to avoid him from the start.y dont u??
___________________________________________________________________
the most bodoh reason is I LOVE HIM.do u know wut love is??who are u to talk about love hah?!!!
@#$%^&*&^%$#@.
my suggest,u just uat donno now,ta payah na sakitkan ati ko sendiri.
if u love him,u can wait for him.just for couple of years lg.that u stil cant erase him from yg life,its ok.
just make yourself happy without him.i know u're the type that loyal.darl.sabar ye.the will be someone out there 4 u,but he will never win your heart.
n someone out there will make u smile,but not like he does.
org tua selalu berkate,wut is there in front of u, u wil never appreciate til it gone.dead n gone

btw,tis is my blog.its up to me na tulis sape??
ade ako kisah..
this is the place i be me.

but,afta ako pikir2 balik,y ako ni baek sgt?
y ta cari je scandal?
gilo jujur statement.
btw,i watching MY SASSY GURL.
kan best if life as easy as that.
or never been kissed.(love it 4 eva)
enchanted
but..i wont be like that.
just keep dream on babe
the fact is y i ta carik scandal,
SAYA MALAS
sy malas na bermula
utk berkawan.
kenal.having fun
ako malas.yg sedia ada pun ta cukup knal
na cari scandal.ape kes?cari pasal ape
he away now from me tis time of period,makes me think back
t time that im alone.

wut do i do?
wut do i work wit?
its bored.
being wit u is wut i treasure the most

i know,its hard to forget u first love.

but i only got U.

the only love i ever wan to felt
your sincere smiles
your macho smell
your smooth kisses
your warm hugs
your stimmy eye
thanks 4 everything dear

me n my heart we got issue

agak knape tah ta kena angin die ni ..da jarang2 msg ako,semenjak 2 menjak ni.agaknye da bored kot with me.um..na uat ape ek.tetiba ada my n mama dok kate pasal chaoi..y ek??siap kate dak MLM 2..ape kes??ako n chaoi adik n abg kot.die org yg ako selasa na cerita dgn bebasnye.die will respond ngn ape ako rase.tp..we just friends.ako leh sakitkan ati die sesuke ati ako tanpa rase bersalah sgt.hehehe.lgpun die da 2,dah ada gf kot.ingat ako ni senang2 na fall in love.na lupekan some1 i love pun susah.nikan na fall lg.masok rehab ako agaknye.


if im not mean to be with him that i love,i will be by my own.is hard to fall in love wit some1.coz i know myself.im devoted to him.n i know deep in his heart he does love me.mmg ramai yg ta ske ako ngn die.so who cares??ako just hope die ta give up dlm idop die.he is my best friend.i pray 4 his future.always!i hate coz die tana ubah diri die.die slalu down ngn diri die..


kite leh ubah idup kite if kite na..if kna paksa.nagging byk mane pun if tana ubah ta kemane gak.ako malas na amik kisah psal his past n wut he miss.cos it makes me BUZZ!!!!geram giler.coz ako tatau how to help him.n he doesnt wan my help.ape je yg ako ta uat tuk die?die sakit,ako urut.ako siap anta foods kat umah.i'll do anything.miss that time.huh!!bodonye ako ni.apsal ta cari laki laen je?peh..jahatnye ako...ta mungkin!!i wait 4 couple of years lgi to decide that.4 now,only him

.
just..tlg.tlg.tlg.ako hope sgt die ubah diri die.pls pray 4 him 2.4 his own good.ako tatau ape da na akp ngn die da.coz everytime i think about that,ako geram with myself.i will make me vain n silent jap.i cant sleep,i cant stop eating junk foods.n lots more.n ta lalu mkn real foods.n my stomach hell sakit.siot tol.

aduh..how na g indon ni...

canteek.

tp..dgr cite baru2 ni,ada org jumpe bom!!

how?segala keindahan yg ada ...

masjid kat indon
permandangan indah dimlm hari di indon

berita hari,kat indon ada org jumpe bom!!n lg satu hotel marriot n ritz terbakar!ape kes?how na g indon mcm ni.aduhai.dahla HINI kecoh skrg.lgla uitm ta kasi g indon.jgn..jgn..burn tiket kiteorg smua.adush.

disuatu pagi yg menkejuzkan ku

ari kamis...patutnye ade class global n issue ecomm..ako terjaga kul 9.golek2 jap kul 920 baru bangun dr te,pat tdo ku..huhu.than trusla tgk hp. tup tup. dpt msg mengatakan class global dibatalkan.peh dengan ati yg seceria yg ada..ako ada niat na sambung lik tdo..tp, ta jadi.borak2 kosong ngn kb.elok borak punye borak..ako pun terlelap seiringan ngn kb.hp ako 2,2 kat hall.silent plak 2.coz takot ganggu umat yg laen.ako terjaga..g depan.tgk ada agak banyak misscal n msg from si die..rupenye2 die kat shah alam.anta my lil bro ke sini balik.ako tatau pun die na dtg.quit suprise la gak..sampai takot na bukak pintu.ako pun terus g mandi selepas reply msgnye.than siap2 na g class.mase tgh siap 2,wiwi n mai dtg.ako lum pakai bju lagi..drang pun masokla bilik ku.wiwi ada prob.cite punye cite,ta dpt setlekan sgt,tp..bolehla..hahahahaha.

nampak si die,tp ako uat donno.tatau na respon ape.ikot ati g hug je..tp.tatau y na tgk die,tetiba ako rase malu..huhuhuhu..gediks kan,ntah pape je ako ni.ta paham, i got issue with my heart n mind!than da siap..derang berkumpul kat depan rumah...da la panas.ako turun trus.sorry guys.than kat bawah ngn g potostat ic..abg tu lembab lak.ako n kb pun blah..lpak kat bawah jap ngn derang.berpanas jap.wiwid na amik pic kenangan.melayan jela..muke den da mcm ustazah da..
btw, i just wanna say i love him!huhuhuhu..ako rindu giler ngn die.if derang ajak plak pun pgi td,den puasa.berbuka ngn bed n kb skali,walaupun kb ta puase

dan tetiba dpt tau yg mama admitted hosp.coz agak teruk gak condition mama.,um riso plak.tp ta dpt na tgk mama coz na balik sban tis week.lae ta balik sban ..na jumpe airis...huhuhuhuhuhu
um..hope mama ok,condition bertambah ok.meer lak bz.ade modul.unc shaba kije sok.tp will take off early la skit.pnjg.ako rase pnat td,n nampak mude die agak riso la.ako dgr td pun terkejut gak..um..tetiba rindu kat ibu.aduhai ibu ku,,,sok kite lepak2 ek..miss u mum!!love u mom!!

banyak tol dugaan ku,,dgn pening2nye ako decide na balik sban mlm ni gak.then afta berbuka pun siap2 ngn gerak,call adeeq ta dpt.die upenye main fotsal,ako na anta kb.ungat na ajak lepak.die takde plak.tape la ako anta je la kb ke umahnye.b4 that CROCS ku HILANG!! giler sedih.cari punye cari..smua tempat ako cari.akhirnye jumpe kat pusat bahasa.kb terkick die kuat dr keta,huh..selamat jumpe.syukur kpadaNYA.

bykla dugaan ku arini.kat class ako ta pay attention pun.gagagagga

ako disaat kebosanan tahap dewa yg teramatnya

wah..

da lame ta upload blog

ntah pape je den ni

bosannye minggu2 ku di shah alam

class mcm na tana je ade

aduhai

masih dlm dilemma na amik paper ape next sem

tp..smuanye telah settle selepas berbincang dgn kb

hahahaha

jd sem ni ako amik 5 papers.

than masa PLK ako amik 2 papers.

disini saya na simpulkan yg sane tidak extend,

dan ari tues ni mau jumpe ngn sir syed

pasal PLK n masa depan ku..

hwahwahwa

mcm2 dugaan ako terima semenjak 2 menjak ni

dibahan...perkara wajib

membahan..pun rutin harian

tp..ako da stat ganti puasa

da 3 hari da

Allhamdullilah.

selamat smuanye

tp..asik pening kepala coz angin kot

biase la

memula puasa setelah ramadhan berlalu.

mmg dugaan skit

kawan ku,wiwi mau pulan ke tanah airnye

bersama kaka nya titin

sorry sgr kat derang coz asik elak na jumpe.

coz na jaga hati org laen.

hati ako yg ta terjaga..pedih 2

ako rinda sama 'dia'

kisah daku ketika di kl bersama teman2

um..
bosannye
class ta pegi pun arini
aduh
mcm ade class je
hehehehehe
mau jumpe tuan rumah arini
now kat puchong.smlm tgk funeral MJ till 4am
than mama kate,tayah balik da lewat
wa...
so bosan
y class ta stat lg?
if da stat tada la bosan sgt
'myman' he still a sleep
um...

weekends ari2
spent time kat amcorp
jumpe wawa n toktok
tok tok jatuh xcalator!!
tgn die sakit n kepala die terhantok gak
wiwid tlg urutkan
tymoon bli minyak urut
wawa sihat

than t.yong..paksu n t.roza dtg
makcik ain bg nasi lemak
toktok n paksu mkn
b4 that i g bli pain kiler 4 toktok
sambil2 2.teman wiwi g bli karipap+ jagung
die na buah2an gak
g li buah2an gak

pg 2 g bfast
kmy+zira+zira's bf dtg
zd pun ade skali n family die
lpak skali

wah!!
byk na cite ni
tatau na stat dr mane
merata cite nye
hehehehehehe

so bosan arini .....coz class ta stat lg =(

wah..
da stat class
tp.ta masok 1 class lg pun
last thurs till sun pja lepak with pjg+meer+wiwid+mama+tymoon
sat mlm plak g lepak ampang
bawak wiwid skali
jumpe raul n adeq
hihihihi
lepak kat tanjung
memula na lepak suzie corner
than ta jadi
g plak tgk dagang avenue
last2,lepak tanjung.
wiwid order ikan siakap 3 rase
lapa agaknye
da lama ta online
um..
banyak na cite
tp tada masa na cite plak
na kuar jap ni
g minum ngn wiwid n pjg jap
ha...
td g bli durian 4 wiwid
now,die tgh makan n pjg
sok..sambung ek
coz sok tada class
yeah!!!!

no idea wut so eva.n this place is mine

um...
cant sleep
aiyok..
so na g dentist n bayar yuran
tapi da biasa tydo lewat
ta dpt na tdo awal.
td,afta balik dr umah akak kul 10 lebih td
tetdo jap kat hall.
huhuhuhu

miss Q n kB
aiyok2
Q... this 4 u darling



n 4 kB
luv u guys
xoxo